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How did we get here?

Where to even start! This blog is going to jump out, there’s a lot to unpack.  It’s important to say this just didn’t happen overnight but rather over years and years things just gradually got worse and each time it gets pushed a little further.  How do I summarise how we got to this point over 15 years? I met my husband, lets just call him ‘J’ when I was 21. We were both young, loud and full of fun. Our weekends were filled with partying mostly. Drinking, causal recreational drugs, hangover Sundays. This carried on for most of our 20s however in this time J developed a gambling addiction.  This was my first experience of dealing with any sort of addictions and I couldn’t get my head round it. He would get paid on a Friday and by the Saturday morning all his wages would be gone. These were the days where you could walk into a bookies and put a large sum on a roulette machine. I believe now new laws have came into place where there is a betting limit. He hid this well for ...

Introduction

 Hello My name is Michelle and I live in Glasgow. I have a husband who I have been with for 15 years (married for 8) and we have 2 children. My husband is an addict. That's it. This blog is for me to write about how I am feeling, face things that have happened in the past - the chaos that our life has been and what my hopes are for our future. I don't think this will be read by anyone but if it does and it's someone who is in the same boat as me - I am so sorry you are going through this also.  I have yet to find a solution. I have no answers. I have no strategies. I might write on here everyday. I might not write anything ever again but what I hope is, that this will be is somewhere to put all my thoughts so I myself don't fling myself off a bridge (tempting some days!) to get out of this circus that is my life.